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"I just feel like you aren't as nice to me anymore"
I'm not nice? How am I not nice? We just spent almost an hour looking for a present that I was going to get for your dad. You tell me what you want and I do it for you. But I'm not nice? I wanted to spend more time with you, but you made plans with your friends for 20 minutes from then. So when I get on the phone to make plans with my friends for the same time, you get miffed?
"You sound all sweet when you're talking on the phone to your friends. You don't sound like that when you talk to me."
Wtf are you talking about? She just got into a big argument and I'm trying to console her? I talk sweet to you all the time.
"Oh, you had to go make plans to get revenge, huh?"
Wtf are you talking about? You have plans, so why shouldn't I? I won't be spending time with you anyways since you'll be with them. I should just sit on my ass all day and wait on a word from you?
Now you're in a pissy mood, but how is that my fault? Oh yeah, everything is always my fault.
"I just feel like you aren't as nice anymore"
I'm not nice? I'm not nice? Is is because I don't give it up when you want it? Because I don't like it when you're grabbing on my tits and ass everytime I see you. Because I don't like it when you shove your hands down my pants when I don't want it. But you don't like it when I say no, do you? That makes you upset, doesn't it? Doesn't it?!
Well how the fuck do you think it makes me feel?
Oh that's right, you don't.
"I only think of you and it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together but I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element,
I'm throwing things, crying,
Trying to figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain inflicted in this song ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside"
 
Happy fucking holidays
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| Hurrah! Today is the last day for most of my classes! I have one class tomorrow. And then...dun dun dun...Finals! I'm so glad this week is almost over. The semester's almost over!
I don't really want to get up and go to class...but I probably should. Let's see. I need to study for ecology this week and finish my labs. The labs are due tomorrow, and the ecology test is thursday. All is going well. I'm not as stressed right now.
I hope my psych project is good enough. It's only seven pages. >< I wonder if we'll get our disaster papers back in ecology? I've done really well on everything in that class.
Please, please forgive me
But I wont be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up
And barely conscious you'll say to no one
Isn't something missing?
You won't cry for my absence I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am i so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
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| Yokatta! The semester is almost over! One more week. I like being away from home. I like being away from all the drama that was high school. I do not, however, like being away from Justin-san.  But after this week I'll get to see him more! You know, it's been almost a year. Everyone always says high school relationships don't last...but we did! Even if most everyone else didn't. Unfortunately...it also means I'll be at home. How long can I remain mentally stable? Will I fall back into the depths of depression? Only time will tell...
So! The bad lady. I wasn't satisfied with our meeting. But I agreed to put it behind us. My parents did not agree. They want to write a letter to the president, which is within their rights, since I am a minor. The question is, should I forwarn the bad lady? Or let her find out on her own?
Aishiteru Justin-san!
<3
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| Today is the day...meeting with the bad lady. Over a month after the incident happen. Why does it take so long? I have no idea. It's ridiculous. But this will be it. I was infuriated at first, and now it's had time to fester...What can I do?
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| blegh. Everything is becoming climatic. I'm starting to worry extra much about my grades. I want to do really well. I'll be very disappointed if I get bad grades. I've tried my best.
I worry for Justin, he gives up to easy.
The meeting with the bad lady is tomorrow. She disrespected my belongings as well as myself. It is unacceptable. It goes against the very morals we learned in primary school as well as my rights as a member of Olivet College. She violated the Olivet Compact. Though I'm afraid what I say will have no weight. She's a professor and I am only a student. Will she apologize? If she does, will it be because she means it? Or only to save face infront of her departemental chair? Can I forgive her? Will this affect her treatment of me in her class later down the road?
Watashi no namae wa Tajalli desu.
My name is Tajalli. Not Tajh. Tajalli. If she can't use my given name, don't use it at all.
Watshi no namae wa Kelley-Graves Tajalli-san desu. Wakarimasu deska?
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